If I were Asked

Questionnaires of Human Faith and Interaction

By

B. Alexander







Q: Good day to you
A: Good day to you to.

Q: Please have a seat
A: Thank you.

Q: To day we will start our session. Here we have a few questions that you have to ask.
It may offend you, but your honesty will be a great value for us to study about human feeling.
A: Fine with me.

Q: Do not feel hesitate to share your opinion with me, any answer worth a lot.
A: But I have to warn you, I’m not good at long speech.

Q: Do not worry, even one sentence worth everything. It also shows us you deepest feeling. And to show us your interaction with your surrounding.
Shall we start?
A: Please

Q: What do you think about live?
A: Something to fight for.

Q: Don’t you find that live is miserable? Don’t you ever have intention to committed suicide?
A: All the time

Q: Then why you still fight for your live?
A: Because it worth a lot, and I still want to test my strength to the limit.

Q: So you are kind of people who believe in self control.
A: No. I believe in God, and with His blessing on me, I know I can stand on mountain, and I’ll never meet my limit.

Q: But thinking of killing yourself has proven that you have no faith in God.
A: And that’s why I have been pronounced as human.

Q: very good, now for other question about your faith.

Q: What do you think about religion, and people who convert their religion?

A: For me, religion is more like people who stand in line to watch their desired movie at cinema.
They queue on line which has three colored area; green at the front, yellow at the middle, and red at the rear.
Those on the green are people on with their strong faith that this is the movie I wish to watch.
On yellow part these are kind of people whose faiths are in grey, whether they just reclaim their faith or just going to loose it and them about to enter the red area.
This area filled with those who are confused whether they wish to watch this movie or not.

Those in green area, they march with full of confident, they have chosen and they won’t regret it.
Those in yellow area, some of them march on to green area along with their faith grown. But some of them, they got confused, they stood still wandering if this is the right movie, and they got passed by those whose faith grow stronger, even who came from the red are. And they on the yellow are pushed back to the red.

That simple?
No because now came along temptation from another movie line, and it hits all of them even to those on the green area. Remember the higher they grow, the harder they fall.

A guy from the other movie line spot his girl, seduce her. Tell her how much he love her and want her be with him. And he threats her that he’ll dump her if she doesn’t follow him, since that proof that she doesn’t love him that much. So the girl gives up, she joins him. That an Eros effect. And that also happened to guys as well.

Friends came along, they ask their friend to join them, said that they will ignore him/her, never called him/her as friends, abandoned. Fear came. No friends? It cannot happen. So he/she join the gang. And that what friends are for.

A boss sees his employee, he gave this order to watch his movie or loose job, and there will be no promotion. And that what power is for.

But seductions, threats, or power, even money is not always being the factor. Some of them deliberately give themselves, mostly the one on red area, due to their confusion; they try to find the best religion for them. And some of them just end up being atheists.

That’s my answer!

Q: What’s you opinion about saying says that all religions are the same.
A: The saying is wrong.
Religions are different. Even for two religions which claim to be major religion on earth, which says that they were brothers.

That’s a bull.
They are different; they no where near to similarity. They have different God to worship, different name pronounced to their God.
They have different way of praying, different apostles.

So they said that they come from the same ancestor, and that’s a lie.

It’s a whole different story, their ancestor are strictly differ each other. They happen to have same name. Well that’s pure coincident, they were different.

They have different genesis, different laws, different rules, and different ways of live.

So where’s the similarity? None!

One religion’s Heaven maybe hell to another’s
One religion’s kindness maybe punishment to another’s
One religion’s permission maybe restriction to another’s

I’m telling you.
There no such thing as unity in diversity.
There no such thing as walking together.

When those people said about their religion were the same. That all religion wishes for peace and unity. What they really have in mind was one religion, one God, one law.
And it suppose to be their religion, their believe, Their God, and no other.

All religion claim to be the best.
All religion said that they are the only way.
So....
All religion is the same?
No!

That’s my answer

Q: Now your country faces this controversial bill about pornography, what is your opinion about this matter?
A: Pornography is sin. That’s I agree with.
But for having religion as camouflage for judging people, that one thing I can’t accept.
We have civilized ways to make people know and feel sorry that they have done something wrong.
The best way is to emerge the God fearing sense from within, not by pushing people away.
To fight fire with fire will not work. It will only create chaos.

Why can we use love to fight this matter?
Why we always choose the hard way?
We cannot press people to do as what we believe. Some of them just won’t change.
We don’t want to have hypocrite people aren’t we?
We want to have them have on consciousness aren’t we?

If we throw fire on devils children, we might have to deal that devil will throw more fire on us.

Remember. Its human beings that we deal with.
Group of flesh and blood who had mind on its own, have will of their own, have perception on their own, have desire.

We cannot expect to have this entire people to be exactly as holy as you.
They are only human.
They will make sin
So what we can do is to have their consciousness grow on their own. We cannot push them.

We can only give them example of our good behavior, our good ways of life.
How can we make people understand if we push them?
If we threat them as dirt and not as human?
If we hunt them down like beast and not herd them like a lost sheep?
If we still act the same as them?

What is kindness from rage?
What is good from crushing property?
What is the value of spitting I others face?

Holy people won’t do that
Holy people won’t curse
Holy people won’t destroy.

If you threat people like dogs in leash and lace.
You will find ended with their fang on your throat,
If you cast stone, they’ll cast you back.

We can only deliver God’s word with love, not anger.

But.
If you still that this the right move, then remember this.

Let the one without sin cast the first stone.

Remember. God created Heaven and Hell, because even God knows that some of these people have no place in His Holy Kingdom.

Q: Then what will you said to people that your religion more permissive about it since it was a western product.
A: Then they have to study history much harder.
My religion comes from African continent, brought to Europe, and spread worldwide since then.

And if you refer to one mighty nation, you absolutely make a great mistake.
What you see is cultural nation, not religion nation.

And from my own statistic review, I can class the people on this nation to be like this:
• 50% were atheist
They believe more in money, power, brain, and knowledge and physique appearance.
Since this is a capital nation, money turnout to be their god, money is everything.
They have smart brain, and since their looking for exact answer, then god and religion became imaginary vision which they cannot accept and only good as debate object and nevertheless became research object on comparison with reality.
They don’t believe on what they cannot control.

• And for other 50%, take this as new group
* 50% were Jewish.
It’s obvious that this is the major religion on this nation. They are placed on much vital sector; politic, money, even entertainment

* 30% were Buddhist, and Hindu.
These religions provide way of merging body, soul and spirit with nature, and they give people more relaxation and give more confident.

* 15% were Moslem.
It’s true.
A lot of people converting since they believe, this is the way of live. Provide more exact laws, and rules, and it also show the meaning of bravery.

* So only 5% left that were have the same religion to what I believe in, and the number decreases.

Well sorry if I have to raise my tone.
But how can you equalize my religion to people who put my sacred icon as tattoo on their body yet still kill each other?
How can you equalize my religion to people who put my sacred icon as pendant, or jewelry but use nothing but lacy bra and g string on their body?

They are not my people.
They mocking my religion
They make fun of it.

So please.
Never said that my religion was western made!

Q: Now about yourself. Are you religious? Are you close to God?
A: I’m afraid not.
If I said that I’m religious than I’m being ridiculous.
If I said that I’m close to God, than absolutely far from The Almighty.

I can’t say that I’m holy since I’m full with sin.
My life is so sinful; I cannot wish that God still have a little mercy on me.
In fact, I’m afraid if God still have His love on me.
Sometimes in my darkest hour, when I’m feeling down, I wish God would just vanquish me, to inexistence,
Ignore me.

And sometimes I just get mad to God for keeping me alive.
For giving me breathe everyday.
For giving me this life.

I’ve deny God. Yes I have.

Q: So you have a lot of punishment and judgment from people around you.
A: Yes I have.
They said that I was ungrateful son of a bitch.
I’m not worth a little bit.
Greatest sinner.
Disgracing God

Q: You have to be very sad about those curse summoned upon you.
A: Unfortunately not.

Q: Why is that?
A: Since that show that I’m only human.
Still flesh and blood.
Still looking for forgiveness.
Still hoping for God mercy.

I’m not holy and I will not proclaim to be one.

Q: Are you angry with your people, then?
A: No I’m not. But I’m angry to the hypocrites who proclaim that they holy.

Angry to people that said we should help each other but hold their money tightly on their hand.

Angry to people who said not to be afraid for tomorrow because God with them, but got scared when they loose job, even with a lot of savings on their account.

Angry to people who proclaim as God servant, but act the opposite ways.

Who said not to curse anybody but cursed.
Who said not to judge but they judge.
Who said that I have no Holy Spirit in me.
Who always look for anybody mistake and frightened them by God’s punishment, but forget to take care of their own family.
Who said that they have nothing to give to the poor, but live in luxury, at least they won’t go bankrupt just to give small changes to beggars.


Q: So, how do you feel not to be forgiven and forgotten?
A: I’m feel sad because forgot a lot of things

Q: And, what is that?
A: To forget that one of God’s must trusted disciple denied Him three times. Yet still God choose him to be His flock’s shepherd.

To forget that one of His famous disciple, who spread His word throughout the world was an assassin.

But yet God still forgive them, and use them to spread His kingdom on earth.
Their sin will not be forgotten. But they have been forgiven.

And that’s what we human forget. To learn how to forgive!

Q: Then what will you said to those who claim that you have no Holy Spirit in you.
A: Then I’ll tell them what my opinion about Holy Spirit is.
If they refer Holy Spirit to the capability of speaking different languages, then this is my answer.

Holy Spirit works on two ways.
By words, and by act!

What I mean by words is that every person who claim to have Son of God as their savior. Then they’ll pray to the Holy One

And what is pray?
Sentences with our hope, wishes, joy, grate.

And how do we speak our pray?
With many languages exist on earth. That’s how we speak our pray.

And that’s my proof that Holy Spirit lies inside every people who believe to the Son of God. It speaks in different languages, different phrases, and different words.

If they said about word of Holy Spirit that didn’t come from this earth, that’s true since Holy Spirit come from God. But they are inside those who believe. And those believers speak in different languages.

Another kind of words is gospels. Our praise to the Almighty by songs and that come in different languages.
Nevertheless is the way we spread the Word of God, by speech, by letter, and that my friend come in different languages.

And that’s my proof that Holy Spirit lies inside every people who believe to the Son of God. It speaks in different languages, different phrases, and different words.

And the Holy Spirit also guides us to act.
There no such thing as No Action, Talk Only in Holy Spirit.
We won’t just speak, just sing or only pray.
We have to act; we have to represent God in our live.
And our act will be differ one to each other. We have a lot of different ways to represent God inside us.

And that what Holy Spirit does inside the believers.
And that also my proof that everybody who claims to be Son of God, and represent God’s behaviors has Holy Spirit within.


Q: How do you describe God’s Kindness to you?
A: How can I describe His kindness? How can you count sands on shore?
How can you count stars in sky?

This what I can say that

I will not be here to day, if God don’t bless me
I will not be able to answer to this question to you, If God haven’t show His kindness on me.

Q: What will you say if you’re being asked about your praying sermon activity? When they said that they pray more than you are?
A: God said that not all people who shout God, God, will come to Kingdom of Heaven.
And He said that we should not pray like kafirs, who pray in open place, shout out loud, just to be shown and admired.

I don’t have to tell every body if I pray.
I don’t have to put announcement about it.

Remember every breath you take, you should pray to God, worship Him, and work for Him.

Do your 24, 7.
Do it strictly between you and God.

And remember Ora et Labora, that’s more important than snooping around.

Q: Lest make short statement, describing you in words
Q: Do you feel that you are great?
A: No I’m not.

Q: Do you feel that you belong to God?
A: After everything I did to Him? I don’t think so.

Q: Did you feel angry to people who judge you?
A: Why should I? That’s their problem.

Q: Won’t you stand for your self?
A: Why should I? It wastes my time.

Q: Then how great you are?
A: I won’t tell you how great I am. But God will help me to show you how great I am. You’ll be the judge.

Q: But if they insist on knowing, what have you done for God, what will you say?
A: Don’t push me! I don’t want to hold my chin up to God.

Q: So, you would be rather branded as looser, sinner, and disgraceful?
A: That will be better.

Q: If you compare yourself to God’s Angels, who it will be?
A: The one that God has descended to hell.

Q: Wouldn’t you have at least pride upon yourself?
A: Pride belongs to God.

Q: Remember, you are God creation as you may say before. You are special; you can not disgrace God, by disgracing yourself.
A: I know, and that’s why I let God to defend me. I have no right to defend myself.

Q: Alright then. If you pray to God, what will you say?
A: Dear God, now I lay before you. I can’t do anything without You.
So God, please help me.

Walk before me Lord, be my guide.

Walk beside me Lord on my right and my left, be my friend, so I may have a shoulder to lean on.

Walk behind me, so I have strong arm supporting me, so my knee won’t hit the ground if I got tired and weary.

Shade my with your love, protect me from heat from the sun, which stings me like bee.

So please God, be my friend.

Amen.


Q: Now, for our final questionnaire. Do you have family?
A: Yes I have.

Q: Do you love your family?
A: I do

Q: Do you have anything to say for them?
A: To my beloved wife and my lovely daughter.
I am apologizing for not being a good father. Good husband. Good lover.

I’m sorry if I hurt so much, to much.

I know how much of jerk I’ve been

I know that I’ve disappointed you so many times, to many times.

Many promises I’ve been broken. Many vows I’ve been denied.

And I know that everything I did to you degraded you to the lowest part.

I’ve made you lower than animal, dirtier than dirt.

And I beg your forgiveness for that.

I know that you won’t trust me again for that.

I know that you hate me that much, so much.

But I will make you happy with any thing that I could do, anything that I capable.

I’ll make you my queen and princess.

My life, my soul.

My everything.

My love.

Greeting

This is my first and sure it wont be my last